A Letter to an Aunt
Hey Patti,
Sorry its been while, but finding the time to sit down and write something other than a short thought to someone. I do have privacy blockers pretty high on my pictures...a lot of them I just keep on Facebook so they are easily accessible, but not so people can see them.
I have trouble understanding myself a lot, but I'll try and explain. I have no connection at all really to any family members. My mom calls me every couple of weeks or so, but it's been well over a year since I've seen her. I don't talk at all to one sister and sparingly to the other. Haven't heard from my dad in years...the last time I did it was him using wanting to see his grand kid to talk to me about an investment opportunity. I don't feel a connection to anyone. I literally talk to family a very odd once in a while, but I never see them. I stay at home with my wife and my kids (half the time anyway) and hang out with buddies occasionally. I have no maternal or paternal feelings toward anyone.
I don't feel any negative feelings toward anyone, I just have no feelings at all. You weren't and aren't a bad aunt. What chance did you have when your nephew and nieces were signed over to their grandma in Florida because no one else wanted them? Maybe I've just given up...I don't know. I push myself really hard to learn and get promotions at work. When holidays come around I spend it with either my wife's family or my kids and I don't hear from anyone else. I accept that as part of life and it's not a problem. I don't worry about the past and just keep working with what I've got in front of me. Two awesome kids who mean everything to me. It's sad they won't really know their Grandparents...who knows..maybe its a good thing..maybe not, but there's not anything I can do about that. Just make the home they live in a happy one and always let them know they are loved and wanted because that's all I ever wanted.
I hope all is well with you and the Duncans and Michelle. I really enjoyed the times I spent with you guys. You're fun and loving people.
Sorry its been while, but finding the time to sit down and write something other than a short thought to someone. I do have privacy blockers pretty high on my pictures...a lot of them I just keep on Facebook so they are easily accessible, but not so people can see them.
I have trouble understanding myself a lot, but I'll try and explain. I have no connection at all really to any family members. My mom calls me every couple of weeks or so, but it's been well over a year since I've seen her. I don't talk at all to one sister and sparingly to the other. Haven't heard from my dad in years...the last time I did it was him using wanting to see his grand kid to talk to me about an investment opportunity. I don't feel a connection to anyone. I literally talk to family a very odd once in a while, but I never see them. I stay at home with my wife and my kids (half the time anyway) and hang out with buddies occasionally. I have no maternal or paternal feelings toward anyone.
I don't feel any negative feelings toward anyone, I just have no feelings at all. You weren't and aren't a bad aunt. What chance did you have when your nephew and nieces were signed over to their grandma in Florida because no one else wanted them? Maybe I've just given up...I don't know. I push myself really hard to learn and get promotions at work. When holidays come around I spend it with either my wife's family or my kids and I don't hear from anyone else. I accept that as part of life and it's not a problem. I don't worry about the past and just keep working with what I've got in front of me. Two awesome kids who mean everything to me. It's sad they won't really know their Grandparents...who knows..maybe its a good thing..maybe not, but there's not anything I can do about that. Just make the home they live in a happy one and always let them know they are loved and wanted because that's all I ever wanted.
I hope all is well with you and the Duncans and Michelle. I really enjoyed the times I spent with you guys. You're fun and loving people.
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